Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Dreaming of Reality

Here I am dreaming again. Day-dreaming;
My mind racing, but this time I'm pacing myself.

The questions of my mind,
The questions of my inner most thoughts,

Who will answer?

There is only one who's answer really matters.
I'm pacing myself.

Let me know please God. I want to hear from you directly.

Order my steps and grant me favor if this is your will.

If this is of you, let me know without a doubt.
If this is not of you or your will, let me know with a shout.

I am confident

I am free, I am all you made me to be.

I am beautiful

I am lovely, I have what it takes to be all bubbly

I am anointed I am blessed

I know you want me to have your best, past your test, and be at rest.
My mind is racing but I'm pacing myself.

Not my will but yours be done.
I trust you, I love you, we've only just begun.

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Queen of My Heart

Yesterday, I stumbled across my baby/childhood album.  I have not looked at these pictures in a few hears now.  Tears of  overwhelming emotions flooded my soul and face as I saw pictures from back in the 80's with me and my Mommy.   They jolted me back to a time in history that was beautiful.  Life is still beautiful but there is something about the beauty of history and time.

Mommy, your love for me has been immeasurable.  You have always made sure I had the absolute comforts of life.  You worked hard to provide for us, you cooked delicious meals, washed our clothes, combed my hair so beautifully, read to me, played with me, hugged me, loved me, taught me how to love our Lord. Because of your prayers, encouragement, tears, scolding, and God's Favor I achieved academically and continue to rise in my career. All the Lady like qualities that I display are because of you.  I love the Lord because of your example.  Mommy you are strength, you are determined, you are giving, you are loving, you are a Miracle.

I want to make your golden years as comfortable as you made my blooming years. I want to go the extra mile and be a better daughter. At this stage in my life, looking at those pictures jolted me into a sphere of realization of your sacrifice of love in growing me, providing for me and making me comfortable.  You are a TREASURE. Though we have our differences, God will continue to grant us all we need to bloom and blossom in our relationship.

My prayer:  God, I thank you forever for the gift of my Mother.  Lord you have been with us and have brought us a mighty long way. You have been our shelter in times of storm, your have been our shield and defense, your have been a way maker.  You have been our PROVIDER.  You have honored my Mother in ways that only you could.  Now Heavenly father, bless my Mother, touch her heart/mind body and soul.  Let your peace, joy and love overflow in her life.  Let her atmosphere ooze with your Holy Spirit presence.  Please continue to provide for her every need.  Cover her with your blood, grant her the gift of eternal life in your Kingdom when your come. Let us experience the joys of heaven together and we will forever be grateful. Thank you for being with us all these years our King, Father and Friend. I love you Lord, Thank you, Thank you THANK YOU, In Jesus Name I pray......Amen.

Boyz II Men song " A Song for Mama"

You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn't anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down

You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You'll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul

You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did

And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on

There were so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl in my life, ooh oh

Mama, mama, you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like tears from the stars
Mama I just want you to know your love is like food to my soul
Never gonna go a day with out you
Fills me up just thinking about you
I'll never go a day with out my mama

Search Me O God

Psalms 139 (NKJV)
O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
2 You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.

3 You comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways.
4 For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.

5 You have hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it.

7 Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
8 If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning,
And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10 Even there Your hand shall lead me,
And Your right hand shall hold me.

11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall fall on me,”Even the night shall be light about me;
12 Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,
But the night shines as the day;
The darkness and the light are both alike to You.
13 For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.

14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

Marvelous are Your works,And that my soul knows very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

16 Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.

17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
When I awake, I am still with You.
19 Oh, that You would slay the wicked, O God!
Depart from me, therefore, you bloodthirsty men.
20 For they speak against You wickedly;
Your enemies take Your name in vain.
21 Do I not hate them, O Lord, who hate You?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?
22 I hate them with perfect hatred;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
24 And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.